June 1 - 14
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only option where empty words rattle...
Everywhere I go, I hear people
talking about Gujarat. In trains, in restaurants, at parties, on TV... the topic
is as inexhaustible as the violence there seems to be. Everyone is talking about
it, and doing absolutely nothing about it.
People in other parts of India
continue to work, sing, party, eat, cry, fight... Life goes on. It is as if the
tragedies in Gujarat were something happening in a movie.
That I think is
what watching real-life horror on television, day after day, does to us. Makes
us insensitive, makes us believe that it is all a two-dimensional thing that we
can switch off and out of our lives by pressing a remote button.
But when
a toe or little finger festers and rots, and throbs with pain, the rest of the
body cannot help but notice. Though most other functions will continue, the ache
will finally overtake the system, and the festering will inflict its rot on the
rest of the body. Unless amputation or a cure is effected, the affected part
will spread its malaise, till health and peace are lost.
For the first few
days after the trouble in Gujarat erupted, I watched the news and read the
stories, trying to see a pattern, trying to make sense of the whole thing. But
as days rolled past and the violence snowballed into an avalanche of hatred and
fury, I found myself unable to even cope with the helplessness that swept over
me.
There was an anger growing in me against the powers that sat silent
when there was need for effective action that would end the slaughter and the
killing. But I also felt an anger against people like myself, people who lived
normal lives and worked for a living and belonged to families. People, who only
because they lived in a city where violence had taken hold of a few minds, had
decided to jump into the fray and let their basic instincts rule.
What I
wonder, has happened to the mothers and sisters and the wives and daughters of
those who have turned into ravaging monsters and are out singing the song of an
eye for an eye and a tooth for a tooth and spreading the mantra of hatred?
Don’t they as women, see the pointlessness of it all? Do they not
find it in themselves to tell their men, their husbands and sons to hold back
and remain human? But reports, even as they talk of rape and rampage, also cite
instances of women turning into monsters and leading brigades as ruthlessly as
the men.
I wish we could stop and see, when anger brings out the beast in
us, what it does to us and even more important, what it does to the generations
that look to us for guidance.
We don’t. So, across the world, in Sri
Lanka and Kosovo, in Iraq and Palestine, in Afghanistan and you name it, men
fight men, in the name of God, for water, for land, as they have done through
the ages.
Only those were the Dark Ages. Today, we are supposedly evolved
and have enough memories to make it to the moon and beyond.
A friend came
down from Ahmedabad, and though I welcomed him into my home, my mind shrank from
his coming. Because, I knew his being there meant he would talk of the Gujarat
situation... and I did not want to face it.
Did not want to face the
trauma of knowing we were a nation lost to reason, to piety, to humaneness and
tolerance. That we were, men and women, a nation lost.
I mourn that loss.
And hold my silence.
The Editor
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